MachineElf 2008-06-10 05:51:18

Oh my, Rabid. I'm kinda reminded slightly of a conversation I had with my friend a couple of weeks ago... where he mentions Hunter S. Thompson. He said, Hunter had already fully developed his personality, and then later on in his life, he began doing these drugs, and it only added to the character. But, I've seen my friend destroy his life with pills like OCs, and is currently in a horrible depression. Some of the stuff that comes out of his mouth really brings me down. He wishes that he underwent all these experiences later on in his life. But then again, most of my friends lack self control, and went a little overboard, whereas I tried to limit the intake of such drugs.

I hope you one day get to experience the wonders of DMT. Perhaps you should try natural DMT production, through meditation. Perhaps it can help you find some calm in your life, although I know that's not what you're saying here.

I hate the feeling of only being a speck. Our lives are just a speck on the Earth, but the Earth is just a speck in this entire universe. Of course you want to be as big of a speck as possible. How long will I be remembered after I pass away? Must make as big as an impact as possible.. and it's through the use of hallucinogens that I have come to this realization.

I've never really an ego death, which, I suppose is a good thing? I wouldn't know, I imagine it is VERY powerful. I've undergone quite a lot without completely destroying myself in a night.

Try to use LSD to boost your creativity, do something above and beyond while you're on it, do what you do. You enjoy writing, how much writing have you done on LSD? Once again we're back to Hunter S Thompson. Maybe write some poems, or songs, or hell, try drawing while on it. Try to use it for more than just "Hey let's get fucked up, it's a Friday". This goes for anyone out there who is interested in the drug. Yes, it's very fun, and I don't think it needs to be done for creativity on every use... sometimes you should just sit back and let your life hit you in the face like a wet trout, it might help. However, Rabid and I have undergone these experiences many times, so at this point in our lives, I feel that using it for creativity is alright. Recreational hallucinogen use is fun, but it can be used for better purposes, and with that comes having fun.

Anyways, It's like 5 AM, I should probably go to sleep. Might pick this up tomorrow or some shit, I dunno. Peace bro.

LegendaryAwesome 2008-06-12 06:27:13

AAAARRRRGHHHH!